Living For Fun <33

Wed, 31 Aug 2005 17:54:19 GMT

HAPPY BIRTHDAY RACHEL ALIZA KUPFERMAN!!!!!!!

I can't believe you're FINALLY fifteen! It sure took you long enoughhh.

You're absolutely amazing and the best friend a girl could ever ask for.

I love you with everything I have and I always will.

Keep smiling and being the perfect person you are.

I hope you have a great birthday sweetie pieeeeeeee <3333

Wed, 31 Aug 2005 17:51:00 GMT

wow words can't even explain how a-m-a-z-i-n-g encampment 2005 was. All my tzafon USYers mean the world to me and I love them with all my heart. I miss my tzophomore fattiesss an insane amount! Six Flags was such fun with my favorite girliessss ( GIMME SOME OF THAT.......GOOOOOOOOD STUFFFFFFF!! ) I finally got to ride the SUPER MAN and it was so fucking great! and of course dip'n'dots have always been my favorite kind of ice-cream. Even though the pink team ended up winning...color was was still fantasticcccccc. Meeting the hot nerusy boys everyone always talks about was an experience. Personally I think Danielle and JP are the cutest couple i've ever seen and I hope with all my heart that they get married! lol hahaa because that would just show how seriously amazing USY is and how it can bring together jews from all over. <333333 .... I hope you had the time of your lifffeeee

T-Z-A-F-O-N

tzafon is the best region

ladeda tzafon is the best

ladeda better then all the rest

ladeda ladeda ladeda....

TZAFONNN!

We're tzafon girls we are the greatest

we get your boys but please don't hate us

we're from upstate so don't degrade us

WE ARE TZAFON GIRLS!

love to my fatties and to my ass girlssss (you know who you are)

missing my tzafon lovers more then anything <3333

Sat, 20 Aug 2005 00:13:00 GMT

Hey everyone I'm back from camp and it was absolutely insane. There were 23 other girls sleeping in my bunk and four a-m-a-z-i-n-g councelors. I became sooo close to everyone that know it seems like they're my family. Being home is actually really depressing because I miss everyone so fucking much it's crazzzzy. Camp is a completey different world where i'm a whole different person. Everyone accepts me for who I am and I don't feel a need to impress anyone. I can be totally myself and not worry about what people think of me. Two of my closest friends at camp live in completely different countries and we all are wearing out friendship bracelets and we made a pact to never take them off...whenever I look at my wrist I feel like i'm in a way connected to them and that we're never truly apart. Also everyone in my whole ayda (age group) is wearing a peice of yellow string tied around their wrist...everytime I look at it I get a smile on my face because it reminds me to be happy and that I have a whole group of friends from all around the world that love me no matter what.

MEMORIES

Hampshire Hills (staying up all night), the racoon hat, chipmunk in our bunk, kerem ma'alot feud, sheket wars, b'shem hashem, tishes, harry potter wall (obsession), the "entertainer", girl talks, terri talk, cloners, relish, shabbats, shower partys, taking a sh*t in the showerhouse with orrel and avital or shmeeza, "worms, I hate worms" (ellie- I know you're reading this you little stalker! I love you babe), ho-ler (israeli accent), lagit!, shower markers, constipation is contagious, goldrush, York Beach, Portsmouth, (these are for Emanuelle --> spit on her own foot, she sings african and I speak chinese), the hike no one wanted, swimming in the ice cold water, maccabbia YAD WON!, placing in KET, go go go Joseph, PROUD HOLDERS OF THE ZOOG RECORD AS OF 2005!, mhmmm and I was part of it (coughcoughm i c l e ycoughcough), gav's (a.k.a vag names - poodle), shmata! (I love you shmeeza), staying up the last night -seeing the sunrise - crying as hard as i've ever cried in all my life....and lots lots more that I hold in my mind forever.

KEREM '06 KICKS!! ( get ready because I'M COMING BACK!! )

"I was one of those people who lived the 10 months just for the two. It was as if I was living the year in black and white and once I came to camp everything would just explode into color" -Daniel Klein

........... it's home

Sat, 23 Jul 2005 16:47:03 GMT

This is my last time on the computer (sob sob) I love everyone sooo fucking much and I'm going to miss you all like fucking crazy. I promise to write everyone I told I would and don't forget to write back. Have an amazing month of summer without me. I'll see you all when I get homee. mwah kisses and hugs xoxo <33333

Fri, 22 Jul 2005 22:54:55 GMT

2 DAYS !!

I ' m g o i n g t o m i s s e v e r y o n e .

Tue, 19 Jul 2005 21:35:00 GMT

oh HAHA and I have just one more quick thing to say....

PEACE OUT LAKE TROUT

Tue, 19 Jul 2005 21:29:28 GMT

Last night was movie night with my four amazing jew girls. We stayed up until about 5am watching movies* drinking soda* talking* and just hanging out on the computer. We watched Empire Records, Dazed and Confused, The Pacifier, and part of My Big Fat Greek Wedding. All the movies were really good and super funny. DOMINATING MALE MONKEYS MOTHER FUCKERSSS!!!! wow Leah_Becs_Sarah_and Rachel I love you girls more then anything in the world. "You can't catch me, I'm a bumble bee" hehe. I'm going to miss all of you while i'm away at camp for a whole looooooooooong month. But I promise on my life i'll write you all like everyday and tell you about everything that goes on <333

My Adress Is::

Sarah Gumson
Camp Yavneh
P.O Box 200
West Nottingham, NH
03291-0200

(I'm not sure what bunk i'm in but i'm sure they'll get the letter to me)

and that adress is for anyone of my friends that wants me to love them forever. Because one of the funnest things in the world at camp is getting a nice letter from your super friends at home. I love you all like crazy and i'll miss you sooooooooo much!!!!! I'll be back August 18th haha but only for three days then it's time for ENCAMPMENT <333 woah i'm excited for that.

** and to Joni when you see this...eventually when you get back...I love you with all my heart and I'll be expecting letters from you and I promise to send you a letter like everydayyyy. mwah kisses and hugs xoxo BEST FRIENDS FOREVER <333 SCP FOR LIFE MOTHER FUCKERSSSS we represent

Sat, 09 Jul 2005 06:56:26 GMT

MY PLANS NEVER WORK OUT!

Sat, 02 Jul 2005 03:44:10 GMT

Last Saturday I went to Buffalo and visited my sister for her 21st birthday. I stayed there until Thursday and had a fucking amazing time. She brought me to a bunch of really good restraunts. We sat out by the pool a lot and I GOT TANNN woot woot! The last night I was there we went to see Bewitched with her kinda boyfriend Tom and it was really cute. I love my sister <333 hehe Anyways now i'm home and I hung out with my Leah-poo and Cassie for a little while tonight. Tomorrow i'm hopefully getting together with my lovie dovie Joni-poo and having a sleepover. For the 4th i'm going to the commons with a bunch of people and that should be pretty funn funn. Later this week I'm having an SCP sleepover with my favorite girls Joni and Becs! woah I just can not wait for that <333 Seems like summers going pretty good for me.

Fill it out please <333

Thu, 16 Jun 2005 22:43:16 GMT

1. Who are you?
2. Are we friends?
3. When and how did we meet?
4. How have I affected you?
5. What do you think of me?
6. What's the fondest memory you have of me?
7. How long do you think we will be friends?
8. Do you love me?
9. Do you have a crush on me?
10. Would you kiss me?
11. Would you hug me?
12. Physically, what stands out?
13. Emotionally, what stands out?
14. Do you wish I was cooler?
15. On a scale of 1-10, how hot am I?
16. Give me a nickname and explain why you picked it.
17. Am I loveable?
18. How long have you known me?
19. Describe me in one word.
20. What was your first impression?
21. Do you still think that way about me now?
22. What do you think my weakness is?
23. Do you think I'll get married?
24. What makes me happy?
25. What makes me sad?
26. What reminds you of me?
27. If you could give me anything what would it be?
28. How well do you know me?
29. When's the last time you saw me/talked to me?
30. Ever wanted to tell me something but couldn't?
31. Do you think I could kill someone?
32. Have we ever had sex?
33. Do you miss me?
34. Do you think i miss you?
35. Are you going to put this on your livejournal and see what I say about you?

Sat, 11 Jun 2005 17:55:07 GMT

wow I haven't updated this in a really long time. Last Friday night I had some of my girls sleep over (Leah, Rachel, Liz, and Anna) Saturday was my moms birthday so we went out to eat and saw a movie at xgates. They dropped me off at my dads and on Sunday I went back to my old school HACD to see their school play (Charlie Brown) it was really cute and i'm so proud of everyone who was in it. I came home and my dad had a BBQ with some of my step-family. That was deff. a pretty good weekend. This week went by pretty fast and it was my last full week of being a freshman! OMG ONLY TWO MORE DAYS UNTIL SUMMERRRRR <333 yeah this summer is ganna be fucking awesome! I have no idea what i'm doing this weekend except sitting here in the sticky hottness and doing nothing. aaahhhhh my tv's broken and we have no air conditioning ...I think I might just go and die now grrrrrr Anyways I really need to study for all my finals that I have on Monday and Tuesday but i'm so god damn lazy so I don't know if that's ever going to happen. I had a whole bunch of finals this week that I didn't study for at all but I think I might have actually done pretty good. Well that's about it so i'll update when something actually exciting happens.

Wed, 01 Jun 2005 00:40:00 GMT

The first two days of Regionals completely sucked ass but I just won't talk about that part. The last two days were fucking AMAZINGGGGG <3333 Dana Critelli you are my shining star and I'm so happy I met you at this convention. Lindsey Helitzer you're fucking awesome and I can't wait to see you again! To all my boys...never forget IT because it's soooo not happening again ; ) Right now i'm suffering through a very rough case of USY seperation anxiety. I miss everyone more then I can even explain. I'm going to try my hardest to go to Encampment this summer but i'm not totally sure if i can go mostly because of the cost GRRRRRR but I swear on my own life i'll do absolutely everything I can to be able to go. I have HUGE bruises on my legs from jumping in and out of the windows (haha) I just can not wait to have another outstanding year in USY. All my fellow frosh will now be tzlutty tzophmores. To all the seniors: USY will never be the same without you and you're going to be incredibly missed. Please come and visit and staff for us! USY seriously makes my life more amazing then I ever imagined. It's something unpredictable but in the end is right...I hope you had the time of your life....

<333 HAVE A TZLUTTY DAY TZAFON

I'm a gangster - i'm straight up "G" - the gangster life is the life for me

shooting people by day - selling drugs by night - don't mess with me - i'm hell-a tight

Sun, 22 May 2005 15:41:32 GMT

Alright just to let eveyone know I just found out last night that my ex-boyfriend Justin Galka, who goes to Albany High is a fucking ass hole and a liar. I'm going to find a way to make his life a living hell. He fucking cheated on me while we were fucking going out and I had no fucking clue until now. If you know him please don't ever trust him because he's a total fucking liar!! and to make it worse he didn't even have the guts to tell me himself!! He waited until after we were broken up to let me know and I can't believe I ever trusted him. This totally effects my life forever...i'm never going to be able to completely trust anyone anymore. All because of a stupid jackass guy with no fucking heart or concience, I will have trust issues for the rest of my fucking life. Thanx for making me feel like a fucking idiot Justin...I can't believe I ever loved you. WOW you called me a two faced bitch...youre a fucking morron!! Justin Galka will tell you he loves you and tell you to trust him and that he's loyal to you and that after me he'll never do this again but please listen to me...this is coming from a girl who truly believed every word he said...DO NOT TRUST HIM you're only going to get yourself hurt!! So i've made a conclusion that all boys think with their fucking dicks, and there's no exeption to that statement. To Justin:: I hope you die and rot in fucking hell for what you did to me. You will always be a cheater, i'll never forget this.

Sat, 21 May 2005 23:46:19 GMT

1. Who are you?
2. When and how did we meet?
3. Do you have a crush on me or are we platonic?
4. Would you kiss me?
5. Give me a nickname and explain why you picked it.
6. Describe me in one word.
7. What was your first impression?
8. Do you still think that way about me now?
9. What reminds you of me?
10. If you could give me anything what would it be?
11. How well do you know me?
12. What's your favorite thing about me?
13. What's your favorite thing about me physically?
13. When's the last time you saw me?
14. Ever wanted to tell me something but couldn't?
15. What have you thought about me lately?
16. Let's do something together for the rest of our lives. What is it?

comment and fill this out please i'm curious <333

Thu, 19 May 2005 20:23:07 GMT

Alright well this week is actually going by extra fast which is totally unusual but really good!! It's been a busy week, a lot of tests and homework. This weekend i'm doing absolutely nothing but I am going to be in Albany at my dads so if anyone wants to hang out just talk to me and we'll make plans =D School is almost afficially over!!!!!!!! OMG I CAN NOT WAIT FOR SUMMER
I'm am so fucking excited for next weekend because it's USY REGIONALS =D
oooohhh yess that is ganna be hell-a fun!! I'm hoping with all my heart that I get hotel-roomed with Becca and Joni because they're my loverssss. I get to miss school on Friday because we leave that morning. I might be staying at Joni's on Thursday night in order for me to take the Ohav (Albany) bus with everyone. The weekend is four flippin amazing days and I absolutely can not wait!!

Sun, 15 May 2005 19:05:20 GMT

Alright so my bad mood has finally passed. I went out to breakfast//lunch at the Madison End Cafe (I don't really know if that's what it's called) with my sister Courtney, my dad, and my step-mom Pat. We just came home and i'm going to go shower and get all dressed and comfortable. Then I need to start writing this dumb ass essay for English (Romeo and Juliet) that's due on Tuesday AAAAHHHHH I absolutely hate writing essays and I already know mine's going to be horrible!!! Well anyways besides writing my fucking essay I think I might watch some more episodes of "Joan of Arcadia" because i'm soooooo addicted to that show lol. Well later tonight after dinner i'm going back to my mothers house and tomorrow I have school. Woop-dee-doo

Sun, 15 May 2005 16:37:56 GMT

Yesterday I went over to Joni's at about 11:30-ish and we basically hung out and watched TV. Yesss we didn't really end up doing anything but it didn't matter because I always have fun with Joni Ariel Ribner no matter what we're doing =D So then at about 5:00-ish my sisters came and took Joni and I back to my dads house. While waiting for dinner, Joni and I hung out up in my room. SO at 7:00 we had dinner and then we went into the basement and started the first episode of Joan of Arcadia (my dad got the first season on DVD for my step-mom) and we had some yummy cookie dough ice-cream! At 8:00 Joni's mom came and picked her up and she had to leave =( JONI I HAD SOOOO MUCH FUN WITH YOU YESTERDAY AND I LOVE YOU WITH ALL MY HEART AND SOUL <333 BEST FRIENDS FOREVER AND EVER!!! xoxo WE CAN MAKE IT THROUGH ANYTHING. After Joni left I went back into my basement and watched more episodes of Joan of Arcadia until like 3:00AM lol yeah I got really addicted!! Well then I woke up this morning in a really extra cranky mood.

Fri, 13 May 2005 22:13:42 GMT

Tonight i'm going to see "FEVER PITCH" with Anna banana at the mall and then i'm coming home, eating dinner, and most likely hanging out a lot with my sister Courtney who finally came home from college to visit me =D Tomorrow i'm going over to Joni's around 11:00-ish and we're going to see a mvie together (we don't know what we're seeing yet) then hanging out until around 4:00-ish. I'm extremely excited to spend the day with my lover Joni Ariel Ribner because I haven't seen her in a looooong time and I love her with all my fucking heart!! Well that's all the plans I have so far for this weekend i'll update again when something exciting happens or maybe after the weekend's over I can write more about it.

Wed, 11 May 2005 19:27:29 GMT

Im not depressed because I know that this situation will eventually pass and i'll get on with my life. But when people I love are hurt because of me I can't help but feel extremely guilty. I'm not happy at the moment but I know that I could have lost a really close friend and i'm glad I didn't. The situation could have come out a lot worse. Sometimes when i'm feeling really upset I write a lot of thing I don't really mean.

Tue, 10 May 2005 03:25:34 GMT

I feel like complete crap. My eyes hurt from crying.

Mon, 09 May 2005 20:30:39 GMT

I don't understand why I have any friends. I am such a horrible person. My friends have done nothing but make my life completely amazing and I just betray them by making a really nasty ass mean decision. I wish I had a time machine so I could go back in time and fix my failures, but I can't because life is fucking torture. Maybe it would all be better if I just disappeared I really don't think anyone will really care since i'm such a total bitch!! I can't change what I've already done so I guess i'll just have to live with my mistake. And the hurt just keeps coming. I need to hurt one person in order to make another person a little less hurt. With the situation i'm in right now there's no way to just get out of it without someone either hating me or getting extrememly hurt. I got myself into this so I guess I need to live with the guilt. I'm depressed and I guess that's okay. I'd suggest not trying to cheer me up I DESERVE THE PAIN.

Sat, 07 May 2005 21:36:28 GMT

Jokes around all the time =D
One and only ninja turtle partner
Never eats salad
Is an absolutely incredible best friend

Amazing at giving advice about anything
Really brings a smile to my face everyday
In my heart forever and always
Everyone loves her
Life would never be the same without her

Remembers everyones birthday
I'd die for her and i'd die without her
Best friend for all eternity and nothing can change that
Nothing can change how much she means to me
Everything about her is amazing and i'm extremely happy I have her in my life
Really extra random and I love that about her!!

...yeah i've been thinking about Joni sooo fucking much
and I felt like writing something to let her know
how much she truly means to me
and that I love her with all my heart <333
I don't care what anyone thinks or says about me because
I do really care about her and i'd seriously have no life without her.
Joni Ariel Ribner is one of my most absolutely incredible amazing best friends
and that will never ever change.
yesss I am pretty dumb and I make some really extra stupid decisions sometimes
but once I make a mistake I can't just go back in time and change it
I need to work through it and remind the people I love that they complete me.
Im really thankful to have a person like Joni in my life

Fri, 06 May 2005 23:57:51 GMT

Today I came home after school and got something to eat. Later Ben came and picked me up in Clifton Park and brought me back to his house. We hung out, watched TV, and ate dinner. I always have so much fucking fun with Ben Watsky because he's absolutely AMAZING and completely GORGEOUS. Tomorrow I have to wake up early and go to temple with my dad. After temple we're going to the Tulip Festival which should be pretty fun. Then later tomorrow night Ben's coming over for dinner to meet my dad and then we're going to hang out awhile. WOOHOO =D On sunday I finally get to sleep in for the first time in FOREVER and then my family and I are bringing my mom to the Tulip Festival (yess I do get to go twice lol) and then we're going out to eat to a very fancy restraunt for mothers day. My weekend is going to go really awesome and i'll be having a lot of fun =D The biggest thing on my mind at the moment is how much I want to see Joni and hang out with her and have tons of fun with her because I ALWAYS do!! I LOVE JONI ARIEL RIBNER MORE THEN ANYTHING IN THE WORLD AND ID SERIOUSLY DIEEEEEE WITHOUT HER <33333

Wed, 04 May 2005 00:38:00 GMT

Some people think they know what they're talking about,
but all they did was hear the wrong story
from people that have nothing to do with the situation.
Maybe people like this should find out
the right information before confronting someone
and calling them a two faced bitch.
wow you're seriously a complete and total ASS HOLE!!
and I can't believe I was so clueless. FUCK YOU

Mon, 02 May 2005 02:42:17 GMT

Yesterday I went over to Ben's house around 3:00 and we hung out, watched "Dodge Ball", and ate dinner. I had soooo much fucking fun with him because he's completely amazing!! I LOVE YOU BEN WATSKY <3333 Anyways my step-mom picked me up around 7:00. I wanted to stay later but my dad wouldn't let me GRRRRR I went home and watched "CAMP" the best movie everrrr lol and then I talked to Ben on the phone and went to sleep. Today I went to Glens Falls to visit my new little baby nephew Aden!! OMG he's soooo adorable =D and my little neice Cailin is about 2 or 3 and she's really cute. After my dad and my step-mom dropped me off at my moms. Now i'm just here doing nothing...i'm going to talk to Ben and then eventually going to sleep.

I think everyone has a a certain view on my life and it's completely wrong. You all think that everything goes perfectly for me and it sooooo doesn't! My family is soooo fucking messed up...certain members of my family don't care a shit about me. I hate talking about this so i'm ganna shut up now.